I didn't want to

I knew there was something off
when I first met you,
ButIDidn'tWantToKnow,
I fucking didn't.

I believed you were my perfect friend,
ButKnewInMyHeartIWasForcingPiecesToFit.

I scraped the inside of my eyes
with false memories
all to appease YOU.

I never wanted to see you angry,
SoMuchAnger,
but I didn't know the scent of your sorrow.

I never knew I could feel so guilty
while observing such dry eyes.

IDidn'tWantToFuckingKnow.

I finally woke up
when I realized you wanted my spine.